Day 8: Share something you struggle with.
I hate being shy.
I wish I could be outgoing, and sociable, and so effortlessly comfortable with being around and interacting with other people. But, hey, what's one more item to add to my list of things I'm mediocre at?
How do people do it?
How do you do it?
Yes, this is making the assumption that you, reader, are not a shy person yourself.
How are you so easily able to be in a room of people you don't know, and not feel unsure or insecure?
How are you able to write off fleeting moments of eye contact with strangers or not-so-strangers as purely coincidental rather than judgmental?
How are you able to so boldly take a risk, start a conversation, or ask someone out?
How do you slow your heart from pounding, your cheeks from burning, your palms from sweating as you're about to ask a ("shit this is going to sound stupid") question, or while you're having a casual conversation ("damn it shouldn't have said that what should I say next") with someone new or someone important?
I'm not doing as badly as I used to. These past few months, I've come out of my proverbial shell (that all my high school friends have tried to break) a bit more than before. I'm not as insecure about myself as I used to. And I've definitely met a lot more people. But...
There are still some days where I wish I could feel as comfortable as I am alone in my room, outside where everyone else is.
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